I hear people talking about fasting when they are seeking God's direction, but I've never understood. I mean, I could go a day without food. Do I do that to prove a point to God? That wouldn't make sense, biblically. I mean, I could deprive myself of a lot of things, doesn't make me any Holier. Unless of course God specifically has lead you to do that.
The last several days I've been in a place. A long line of circumstances have brought me to this place. You know the place: discouraged, defeated...It feels like everything I touched was Rejected.
You feeling me? Rejected! I don't know how to explain it.
I could say so much here but I will sum it up with - Rejected. Everything I did, it felt like It was being Rejected by God. Does that make sense?
A few days ago I hated that word because I felt it was stamped across my forehead. Where did I go wrong? Did I turn from HIM?
But today if that word was tangible I would pick it up and kiss it. Anything that causes me to fall on my face and seek Him, with my eyes wide open, and off me, looking for HIM and to see Him in a new light, yeah I could kiss it. :)
And that's what I believe God desires when He talks about Fasting. He desires our, "Falling Apart."
When you're Faced with Loneliness, that's God saying - "Fall Apart" (Psalms 25:15-17)
When you're gripped with Fear - "Fall Apart" (Psalms 56:3-4)
When you feel Rejected - "Fall APART" (Psalms 43)
When your burden is too much to bear - "Fall Apart" (Matthew 11:28-30)
When you're faced with confusion. - "Fall Apart" (God will cause confusion so that you have no other option but to seek Him.)
When you're directionless - "Fall Apart"
When you've never experienced what I'm talking about, It's due time to. - "Fall Apart"
When your world around you is crumbling. QUIT carrying the load on your shoulders and - "FALL APART"
You can't pretend to be strong before God. He doesn't want you to be. We often feel the need to be tough for everyone, trying not to break because if I allow myself to fall apart everything else around me, that I am working so hard to carry, will crumble as well. God doesn't need us to protect HIM. He's a Big GOD, He can handle it! He wants it. His strength is made perfect in our weakness. Fall Apart before Him. It may take days or weeks, maybe even longer. However,
Psalms 30 -(check it out) is on your Horizon!!!
Verse 5...Weeping May Tarry for the Night,
but JOY comes with the Morning.
but JOY comes with the Morning.
I don't find it a coincidence that most of these verses came from Psalms. From David, who had a heart like His. David did A Lot of Falling Apart! If my Falling Apart creates in me a Heart like HIS. Break me LORD!
If, my friend, you have never felt like this. If you don't know how to fall apart before God. If you've never been so hungry for Him that you would rather die than go another moment without His Presence. Start praying for it. Start praying for that hunger. Pray that He will break you!
That is where the "Living Water" Comes from. Being broken! (Psalms 51:17)
“And you, my son Solomon, acknowledge the God of your father,
and serve him with wholehearted devotion and with a willing mind,
for the LORD searches every heart and understands every desire and every thought.
If you seek Him, He will be found by you; but if you forsake Him, He will reject you forever.
His Clay ~
