Being Put in my Place

I took my children to go and visit their Grandparents in South Carolina last week.  That, by the way, is a 6+ hour drive.  With a van that is having some problems, I can honestly tell you, that drive can make me a little anxious and impatient at times.

At one point on the way back to Kentucky, I looked back at my son and noticed that he drew with green crayon all over my freshly washed window by his seat. The words I felt coming to my lips were less than encouraging or building up.  I mean, he's 5, shouldn't he know better?  Do I really have to tell him "everything"?  I knew my attitude was less than... and I knew my words had potential to be hurtful, so I took a moment and Prayed before I spoke.  "Lord, what do I say here.  I can't be passive, but I don't want to hurt his feelings either." 

The Lord graciously changed my tone of voice and Oh my goodness I'm so grateful He did.  He changed my words and my reaction to say: "Jaxson, What did you do? Do you think that was a good idea?"  He said: "Look Mommy.  I made you a pretty picture with my favorite color, Green. I thought it was a good idea because I was making it for you and I thought you would think it was beautiful. Do you like it?"

Oh how my words would have unknowingly crushed his precious spirit if I hadn't surrendered them to the Lord.  I then took the opportunity to Praise his artwork and tell him that it's beautiful but I'd rather have it on paper, so I could keep it forever, and we calmly talked about appropriate places to color.

Lord, place a seal over our mouths.  Help us to constantly remember that our children are constantly being shaped by our actions and reactions.  May I encourage them in You and never discourage them from being the Young people You created them to be.  May I be worthy of the precious gifts You've entrusted me with.

YOUR clay-

Melissa Bradley

"Godspeed" is on my playlist because nearly 10 years ago I used to listen to this song on repeat, praying over my future children and daydreaming about what it would be like to be the mom of a precious baby boy. I daydreamed about the Super Hero stage (that he just so happens to be in right now).  The day's he would be so worn out from saving the world from Supervillian's and Bad Guys that he would accidentally fall asleep on the couch, still in his cape. 
I listen to it to remind myself just how precious and fleeting these days are and that no matter how exhausted and overwhelmed I am, to treasure my precious "Spiderman".

Mommy-ing like Jesus

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Have you ever felt completely incompetent in mommy-dom.

It seems, since we began fostering, it hits me about Friday every week.  I have to go back to the start and I have to say,

"Lord, I'm in this because this is where You have brought me. This is a call you have placed on our hearts. You have lead us here, and even though I feel completely inadequate and ill equipped, You know this situation and YOU know the words that need to be spoken to this young girls heart. Lord I need You to speak through me now, because if I do, there are about to be Fireworks."

My Foster Daughter is on restriction and it is well earned restrictions. Guidelines that we have calmly, clearly and rationally laid out; she clearly understands and the very next day (or with in the next hour) it happens again.

I don't mean slip up rules. I mean, I asked you to get off the phone, it's after your bedtime and I find her 30mins later sneaking and whispering on the phone.

I have been away all weekend on a ladies retreat.  I haven't seen my 2 children in two days.  When I got home my husband hurriedly handed over the children because he had to leave for a meeting and immediately it starts.

Many little independent things she's saying: whining, complaining, mentioning different things in a negative tone, slightly talking down to me...She's trying to get a rise out of me.  She keeps it up. Despite the fact I have not seen, hugged, or even talked to my own children much in 2 days. (I love her to death, but I really want you to see how ugly my own flesh felt, so please don't judge too harshly, too quick.)

It would be easy for me to "Flesh Back" and tell her what's, what because without a doubt she was off base, somethings were downright mean, bitter and manipulating.

However, she is not my child She's GOD's - He's called her to my house and I am to treat her as HE would.

So instead I keep listening to her, holding my children, watching her, smiling, nodding and PRAYING!  Praying that the Lord would give me a glimmer of what's Really  going on here.  Praying that He gives me HIS eyes to see her, HIS Compassion to hear her and HIS love to handle her.

Did you know that our God answers prayer.

Oh He does and be ready for a broken heart when dealing with children.

To sum it up without getting deep into detail:

• Have you ever felt worthless, like you didn't matter? 
• Has anyone ever treated you like a treasure that needs to be kept safe?
• Have you ever had boundaries set out before you that came out of love and wanting to protect you, rather than just trying to keep you from getting on someone's nerves? 
• Have you ever had someone that actually wanted to spend time with you?
• Have you ever had someone that truly enjoys your company?

I could go on and on.

My point is: So often we see symptoms, such as the rotten attitude, negativity, etc. and when it is treated out of our flesh the problem is NEVER solved only worsened.

The Lord has given us our children as a treasure. Meant to be kept, loved, Treasured, ADORED and lead in HIS ways.  If we can't do the simplest thing in controlling our tongue and leaning on HIM for wisdom to see the root and not the symptoms our teens/our children will NOT see the Love of Christ in us. 


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If we look at children that are not our own, see their symptoms and don't pray to see the root of the problem - They will never see Christ in us!

• Do your children feel like they're worthless, like they don't matter? 
• You see it doesn't matter what they're saying, or how off base they are. Treat them like their thoughts matter, their feelings matter. We need to wait, smiling, PRAYING patiently for the Lord's response. He's the One who you want to hold your child's heart. His response will reach them when my response may cut them to the core and leave scars. 
• Have your children ever been told (by you) that they are a treasure that needs to be kept safe?
• If you don't tell them, and treat them that way, they will be placed on an empty Painful hunt to look for their worth that should be taught by their parents.
• They are a priceless, irreplaceable treasure. They need to be treated that way.
• Do your children have boundaries set out before them that come out of love and wanting to protect them? Rather than just trying to keep them from getting on your (or someone else's) nerves? 
• Have you ever been self conscience of their behavior or them in public or in front of friends? There's a BIG difference in holding your ground out of being a parent and trying to hold a ground because you fear how you may be perceived as a parent.
• Do your children know that you actually want to spend time with them?
• Do you date your children? Even if it's sitting down rocking them and watching an extremely long cartoon that they want to watch.
• Or taking them to lunch one on one?
• Do your children know that you enjoy their company?
• Do you sit down and patiently have a conversation with them like they matter, their thoughts have worth? When they talk about pointless stuff do you treat them like it's pointless or do you refocus them or show them "Gently" the big picture?

Kids know when you're smiling and nodding and it says to them that
they're stupid and they don't matter.

• Teenagers have a flood of hormones, new thoughts they've never had before, EVERYTHING is brand new.  They don't know how to organize their own thoughts.
• They are becoming an individual, no longer a kid. That's hard! Trying to figure out "Who" they are, how they're viewed...Hard, hard, hard.  You as the parent have a beautiful opportunity to teach them how to sort it out. How to see the big picture.

Children need to be treated as a precious, priceless treasure, so they're not forced to search for someone/something else to fill that void.

Proverbs 16:22-24
Understanding is a fountain of life to one who has it,
But the discipline of fools is folly.

The heart of the wise instructs his mouth
And adds persuasiveness to his lips.

Pleasant words are a honeycomb,
Sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.

HIS Clay~

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The Beautiful Call to Parent

The many years I daydreamed about being a mom. I never realized the intense responsibility that came along with it. Knowing that my every action, word, motive; everything that I do is shaping my children.

Knowing how I discipline, how and what I encourage,  my passions and my desires are going to have a huge effect on my children.  The areas I compromise. The sins I justify; "yeah, the bible says we shouldn't...but that's not a "big sin", so what's a little slip-up here and there." (Pride, gossip, slander, lust, compromising biblical truths for the sake of convenience, etc...)

In a recent post  I asked: "If we say we would die for our children, shouldn't we live that out daily?"  

Being a Godly Parent is a daily call to die.  Laying down my own wants, needs, desires in order to display Christ to my children.

Beautiful Mommy Thoughts

It doesn't matter how silly we feel or how unimaginative. It doesn't matter how much we have to put off, or that goes undone. Time spent playing in the floor with my children or rocking and reading to them will be moments I remember and cherish forever. I won't remember my status updates or notifications. I won't remember the series finale of the most talked about show.  The mess that I needed to clean up or the phone that needed to be answered. I will cherish "these" moments. The ones that so easily get pushed aside because we think we can get to it in 5 minutes. I'll remember the times that instead of running around trying to clean up around them, I got my children involved and we made it fun.  Even though it took longer I'll never forget how excited they were to help, just to spend time with me. 

When I'm not looking

I have to admit, there are days I get so frustrated and discouraged because I Really want to have some time "Alone" with God, and as a mommy "Alone Time" is a thing of the past.  I try to get up early and I promise, the kids hear me open my bible, and I cannot concentrate if I have anything going on around me so this is Really a Task :)

I take the kids outside to play and I pull out my bible and Jax has a question, then Pait does everything Jax does so here she comes trying to say what Jax said, it really is adorable, but I can't spend time with God with so much going on.  I feel like I can't be the mommy they need me to be if I don't get to spend the time with Him that I need. I don't feel like I can be the wife I need to be or minister in the way He's called me to if I can't spend time with Him.

The other day I was having one of these battles in search of quiet time so I took the kids outside to play and I sat on the front porch and Pait came up to me and she said, "Bible, Bible" so she grabbed one of my bibles and sat down beside me and pretended to read.

God showed me that even though I'm not Really getting to spend time with Him the way I would like my walk is having an impact on my children's life, I am called to be a missionary to my children, and they mimic my every move.  When I'm not looking at my attitude, actions or words, they are!  My friend Sunshine told me the other day, "God made us mom's. He knows our life is hectic." 

While that is in no way a justification to not spend time with God, because spending time with God is not an obligation.  We are Blessed to be able to boldly approach God and present our requests to Him and to have Him mold us into His vessels to be used for His Good Purposes, and for Him to give us His peace as we walk on shaky ground. How on earth could that be considered an obligation?

I am learning to adapt to this era in my life with Him. Enjoy this time with my children and to meditate on His word throughout the day.

Philippians 4:8

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.